We both swear our undying love for eachother but one of US is lying. How can He
love me when I don't even love myself?
I think it's Karma getting back at me for what I've done to __
. He hurts me so much that I sometimes wish that with every cut to my wrist comes a stab in His heart.
If I only
listened to Him, He wouldn't be doing this. Everything would be so different.
He's all I've got. I need Him to understand what I'm going through. All the depressed and dark thoughts in my mind are caused by Him.
And the sad part is I still want US to last and never end. I want to change. I want Him to change. I couldn't talk to Him about it. I tried but failed.
I'm holding on to Him but He's pushing me away. Trying to break loose. If I let Him go He'll never come back. And I'll end up alone exactly like how I began.I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's just a dream, and pretend he's not hurting me.