Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Countdown to death: 0- I'm already dead.
He didn't save me.

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6:01 AM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

We both swear our undying love for eachother but one of US is lying. How can He
love me when I don't even love myself?

I think it's Karma getting back at me for what I've done to __. He hurts me so much that I sometimes wish that with every cut to my wrist comes a stab in His heart.

If I only listened to Him, He wouldn't be doing this. Everything would be so different.

He's all I've got. I need Him to understand what I'm going through. All the depressed and dark thoughts in my mind are caused by Him.

And the sad part is I still want US to last and never end. I want to change. I want Him to change. I couldn't talk to Him about it. I tried but failed.

I'm holding on to Him but He's pushing me away. Trying to break loose. If I let Him go He'll never come back. And I'll end up alone exactly like how I began.

I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's just a dream, and pretend he's not hurting me.

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4:49 PM

About Her
She's so good at pretending
They have no idea what goes
on Her mind
They will never know
how many tears are fallen
each night for Him
Nor the endless hours
that She wastes thinking
Maybe. Just maybe.



Happiness and love
are just words
to me.